Every Story Has a Back Story

Twenty-seven years ago, I wrote a story called “Jungle of the Heart.”  It sat in a folder for about the next seventeen.

When I decided to return to creative writing, I pulled it out.  ‘Hmmm,’ I thought, ‘maybe with some editing, this could be published.’

I sought help from mentors Susan Tweit and John Brantingham.  Susan gave encouragement and editing advice, while John motivated me with an array of journals to try for.  He said he knew of a small online journal that would publish it immediately, but he thought I should aim higher.

The first place the story landed was a writers’ blog site called RedRoom.com.  A writer whom I’d taken a workshop with, Victoria Zackheim, recommended it.   Although a blog, the story had to be accepted by the editor.  He admired it so much that he linked it to the RR home page, where my little ant-sized photo joined the likes of Maya Angelou, Jon Stewart, and Barack Obama.  Man, was I thrilled!

Eventually RR became defunct, so I decided that the story’s new home should be a literary journal.  I wanted the journal to be both online and print formats (I’ll explain why in a minute).

As directed, I aimed high.  I got rejection letters from fancy-schmancy journals like the Paris Review, the Sun – maybe a dozen all together.  That was depressing; no writer likes to receive rejections.  Some are better than others.  We’d rather read a personal note like, “We loved it!  And we almost took it, except…  Signed, Shelby Worth, Editor,” than the generic form letter that says, “Thank you for submitting your work.  We regret that we cannot use it at this time.  Signed, Generic Editor Who Hates Your Writing.”

To be honest, I didn’t spend a lot of time submitting the story, because I’d begun work on a book-length memoir in addition to teaching full time.  I figured that when I sent to the right journal at the right time, it would happen.

The right time turned out to be Spring 2018.  And the right journal turned out to be Westwind, UCLA’s Journal of the Arts.

But not right away.  My first contact from their editor said that their editing committee might consider publishing it if I would be open to suggestion.  Uh oh.  I had a feeling I knew what “suggestion” she was talking about:  They’d want me to take the word “cock” out.  Could I do that?  I decided that in the interest of sharing the story, I could.  There are other words.  Dick.  Sex.  Manhood.  Schlong.  Anaconda.  Down there.  The list goes on.

If only that were it.  But no, they wanted more, and at times, less.  More character development.  More richness of detail.  Less superfluous information.  I sighed, knowing I would be taking an unplanned vacay from my book in order to accomplish this, and yet with no pot’o’gold guarantee waiting at the end.

But I did it!  And I saw that my changes made it a better story.  The editor told me they were very excited to publish it.  We laughed together about how I thought it was the word “cock.”  (I mean, their own description of their journal’s ethos said that they are very open-minded, but how often have I heard that before?)  She apologized for having suggested one change, only to tell me, after I made it,  “Ohh, don’t hate me – but I think I liked it better the first way.”  Argh!

I didn’t realize how long it would take to come out.  We finished our edits last summer, and then I waited.  I checked the website every few days.  Summer ended.  Fall began.  Fall ended.  Winter began.  And I started to wonder if the whole thing had been my imagination.  Or maybe the journal had lost funding?  Maybe UCLA had CLOSED DOWN?  (No, that could not be.  Get a grip on yourself, Lynda!)

In mid-January I checked the site a couple of times and saw nothing change, until…  Suddenly there it was: The Spring 2018 issue that contains my story!  Page 90.  With little blurbs about the authors (e.g., me) in the back.  And the word “cock” still intact (I checked).

I like the art work, people with what could be little red hearts. The editor even references the story in her Fiction Editor Note just inside the front cover.  Best of all, and something that readers of the journal will never see, was the comment she made when we were negotiating:  “We almost wondered if this was too good for us.”  Whoa!

I haven’t seen the print copy yet.  Which brings me back to why I wanted both formats.  Print copies become part of the collection housed in the Library of Congress.  As for online, the story is used by the International Professional Surrogates Association as a training tool in preparing surrogate partners in sex therapy.  I have done some sex and body image education for them (see also my blog post Body by Lynda.)  The online link is an easier resource for them to access.

As a result of showing John Brantingham this story, he invited me to do two public readings and then to teach a workshop on Writing About Sex.  I did it at last year’s Writers Weekend at Mt. San Antonio College, and I will be teaching it again this year (weekend renamed Culturama).

I guess the moral of this back story is, “Don’t give up your dream!”  I’d wanted a career as a writer but let my dream get side-tracked by the need to make a living.  By the time I went back to writing, I had no idea where the road would lead.  I didn’t have a blog, a website, a published story, a writing award, or a book that was nearly finished.  Now I have those and more, and all I can say is that I’m enjoying the hell out of it!

Here’s the link to the story, which is in the Spring 2018 issue and starts on page 90.


westwind cover

47 thoughts on “Every Story Has a Back Story

  1. Im so happy yo had the courage to put your story out there! Because of this experience you have shown the world your talent for writing!


  2. I am happy to hear that you finally got your work published! Reading about you continuing to chase your dreams only motivates me to continue chasing my dreams and not give up when things get difficult. Thank you for sharing!


  3. Lynda,
    I am so happy to read that you have this accomplishment under your belt. Thank you for reminding us never to give up on our dreams. It’s true what the saying says, “When one door closes a new one opens”.


  4. Congratulations! It must have felt amazing having your work published for the world to see. Hearing these success stories (reading in this case) helps anyone of any age realize that their dreams can always be a reality. This story has reinvigorated me and I now want to continue chasing some of my smaller dreams as I continue my college life! Thank you for this inspiration! Again congratulations and thank you for sharing a part of your life with everyone here.


  5. Congratulations Lynda! I enjoy hearing that you had went back to do something that you love. Also that you made it and do to your ambition and love for writing you published the story! Again Congratulations!


  6. Congratulations! I envy you Professor. I always wanted to write, however fear comes in my way. I never thought writing a story does takes time. How long did it take to finish it? Thank you for sharing.


    • Thank you! And I have to say, don’t let fear stop you. I actually wrote the story pretty quickly but over 20 years ago. Then it sat in a folder. I went back to it about 10 years ago and spent some time revising. Then quite awhile sending it out and getting rejected, before I found the right journal.


  7. That is really encouraging professor I personally would be terrible at writing just writing this comment I feel the struggle with it because I am so bad at it, but to write a story would probably be even worse for me


  8. First of all, congratulations on your success with your writing, it truly inspires me to grow. I also remember Professor Brantingham bringing up Culturama during class but I was too afraid to attend, I was not sure that I would fit in but I regret going since I could have met you. I am happy that you are now able to use this platform to share your stories with us.


  9. This is a very encouraging and powerful story to read. This is a true example of grit of someone who is persisting to achieve a goal. I can only imagine the rollercoaster of emotions from the dozen rejections to the acceptance of UCLA’s Journal of Arts!


  10. Thank you Professor for sharing such an inspiring story! Also, congrats on having your work published! While growing up, I always had a passion for creative writing; but had to set it aside due to college. When I read your story, it truly inspired me to continue my works in creative writing in the near future.


    • I hope you do continue, Vivian! I stopped writing to work on my career, and later I regretted it. Yes, I am getting some things published now, but I would have had more, and would be a better writer in general, had I continued – even a little at a time.


  11. Very encouraging to see you going back to chasing your dreams of becoming a writer. Just goes to show it’s never too late to pursue what you love and reminder to continue investing in the things that bring you true happiness and fulfillment.


  12. Congrats on your published work, not everyone has strength to overlook rejections. Do you feel that this is your greatest accomplishment or will you be implementing further projects in the future?


  13. Congratulations on the publish! Very inspiring! I’ve also been wanting to pick up a few of my dreams (music and photography), but I’m very afraid of rejection and judgement. However, it’s amazing how you were able to face rejection and make your dreams a reality. Very, very inspiring!


    • Believe me, I was just as afraid of rejection as you! Most people in the arts find out that it comes with the territory. But if you push yourself to do it anyway (for yourself, and not necessarily for someone else), you might be pleasantly surprised when that first acceptance comes through … and then another … and then another!


  14. Congratulations on the publication, professor! I feel really inspired by your story and have tremendous respect for your perseverance. I have always had dreams of being able to write music, but stopped during high school after making a fool of myself during an assembly. Since then I have been virtually inactive in music, but this story of you being able to pursue your dream is so exciting and its given me a sense of hope that I hadn’t felt since high school. Thank you for sharing your story and I wish you luck in your future endeavors!


    • Thank you! And I hope you will continue with your music. When I was younger I had several events that made me stop writing. Now I regret that so much, because I would be better today if I had kept it up. But I’m back to it now, so that’s what counts.


  15. I’m very surprised of the amount of time and energy it takes to publish a story. There is a ton of hard work behind it. Congratulations on your achievements! It is very exciting to read about the comment from the editor. Writing is a small hobby of mine, but I am not the best writer by any means. Your story gives me hope that someday I can also have a story published. I was happy to see hyperlinks incorporated in the post, but I was not able to access some of the links. Unfortunately, this includes the link to the story posted in the Westwind UCLA journal. They sent me to an error page.


  16. As someone who also loves to write, I know just how exciting it can be when people read your work and tell you that they love it. Congratulations on pursuing your dream and achieving what you were aiming for! I’ve already put my love for writing on hold because I am also focused on making a living first. I hope that when I have a stable career that I can also go right back to writing.


  17. This is such empowering story. I really connected with it. I am happy that everything worked out for you at the end. I believe that as long as you don’t lose focus on what you want to do in life one will eventually accomplish it.

    Great Post Professor Hogan

    – Omar Mercado Soto


  18. I absolutely love how real you are! Reading how you stayed true to your roots and weren’t afraid to be vulgar! Congratulations on your success! Seeing how ambitious you are is a true motivation to not ever give up. I’m looking forward to many more posts like this.


  19. After reading this it gave the feeling to not give up on anything, and thing will can happen. I am so used to instant gratification that I never appreciate the time and effort I put into most things. These are the type of stories I read to boost myself esteem and help me get through the semester! I, thank you so much, for you sharing this story. I really need it!


  20. Congratulations on your success!!!
    Your determination and “go get them” attitude is really inspiring..you are truly a role model to follow 🙂


  21. Congratulations!!! This just proves that no matter what you have to get back up and try again and one day it will pay off.


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